The Diary

This page acts as my venting diary, if you've clicked this far, you should know that there will be sensitive content.

You've been warned. 

i fully believe im a horrible person. i dont think i deserve anything good and honestly im waiting for the way i die or something. im too clingy, im too needy. i shouldnt be such a needy person. 

i feel like an attention whore half the time when im not doing well.

because there is no reason for me to feel like this, idk. maybe ive always been horrible. 

this past month ive been going to bed thinking about that. i want to be fucking normal and not such a fucking parasite. i feel like a fucking parasite. i get so upset over little things and its fucking stupid

im fucking terrible, im a terrible person
im really a terrible person but no one will tell me that because they dont want to make me upset

im fucking terrible

3:30pm - 9/26/2026

never thought that id cry enough to clean by own glasses with the tears that accumulated into the lens. convenient i guess. 

god am i fucking stupid or something
7:31pm - 1/17/2026

im not doing good and i dont know how to explain why or how. but truthfully i think i just want to kill myself today. i dont know. i hate being like this. i hate spiraling. i think im going to hrut myself. i dont think id tell anyone if i do or not, idk. lol. this is . funny. its funny. its so funny. its so fucking funny isnt it.

9:18pm - 11/29/2025

There's nothing here . . .